Yay!!

I'm so excited it's Friday and that I did well on BOTH of my tests!! A lot of stress has been lifted off of me....for a while at least. Funny how such a seemingly small thing can have such a mood impact.....I guess that's the life of a college student though.
I'm not sure yet what I'm going to do this afternoon....but I'm gonna make it something fun!

My busy week

Hey everyone! I know it's been a while since I posted...but things have been crazy busy lately. So far this week I have had a genetics test, 2 statistics quizzes, and a genetics lab midterm. Tomorrow is the big one...a cellular biology test ahhhhh. Think of me tomorrow morning :)
On top of all that my fraternity has been keeping me very busy....it's the time of year where we have to be available to attend all of the many rituals for the new pledges.
I also got voted to be a homecoming king candidate at my college. I think it should be a fun experience, although there seems to be quite a bit involved (lots of meetings and interviews to attend) I never really had any idea that there was so much involved!
ok...i've talked enough....now I have GOT to study for my test tomorrow!

What a Day!

Today was a beautiful day....the temperature was pleasantly cool and there was a nice breeze. I probably should have been doing school related homework, but instead I was sitting on my front porch dealing with my addiction...facebooking!! Then I decided I would go to a antique book store that my neighbor mentioned to me the other day. I arrived at a store that I almost thought was abandoned until I got up close to the door and looked in through the dirty glass. Inside there were thousands of old books from floor to ceiling covering almost all of the floor space. I ended up looking for nearly an hour and decided to buy some nice 100 + year old book sets....they really are beautiful leather bound books. Antique book collecting has been an interest of mine for several years now. I think that they really give us some insight into the past and how people once lived their lives. While I'm on the subject of the past.....today was a day of remembering the awful events of six years ago. I had a very nostalgic day...remembering where I was and what I was doing back then, but also thinking about how far I had come since then....sophomore in high school to senior in college...wow how different my life is! I can hardly believe that so many years have passed so quickly. Now it's time for the homework that I neglected earlier :(

What about religion??

Well here it is Sunday evening...ahh those are kinda depressing. I've been a bad blogger and haven't been posting lately cause the weekend was just way too busy. I went to a nearby town and went shopping lol!
I actually attended a church service this morning...it's just something that I've always done growing up, but now I think I'm beginning to question organized religion. I feel like I just don't really belong there anymore given the church's view points in certain areas. When I refer to "the church" I mean pretty much all religious institutions. How can they seem to be so unaccepting? Isn't religion and Jesus supposed to be about accepting people for who they are and that one big concept LOVE? I had lately been hearing about all the hypocrisy that is running rampant in some Christian circles lately.....the Ted Haggard incident stands out in my mind. He is someone that preached about the evils of homosexuality and how we should repent of our sinful ways for years....but guess who was caught with a male prostitute...yeah you guessed it the good ol' reverend. Anyway this is just my rantings about religion.
Well...goodnight everyone

Here I am..the newest blogger

Well here it goes...my first internet blog. I really wondered what I was gonna say in this....so bare with me. Thanks JA for your technical blog assistance! I'm a 21 year old college senior stuck in what has proven to be a somewhat small conservative Kansas town, but I'm making the best of it...i mean after all, I probably appear to be "one of them" lol
Here's a phrase I have found myself saying A Lot lately....I always thought I was a normal, average kid! Well here's something that you probably don't know about me....it was my deepest darkest secret....but here it goes. I just admitted to myself about 3 weeks ago that I am gay...yes you heard me...gay. I inexplicably felt compelled to come out to one of my good friends who has been out for several years now. You can't believe how much this has helped me. Years of denying a part of who you are really takes its toll on you. JA thanks for being there when I needed you...I love you buddy! This has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with...as I said earlier I was blessed with a very nice and smooth running life all along until recently when said roadblock has sent my life on a divergent path. I can only hope this new path will lead me to something good in my life...someday. I as of last weekend came out to K, one of my best friends. I was even more scared this time around because he is straight as an arrow and I was so worried he would disapprove of me and my choices and never want to talk to me ever again. To say the three little words I am gay takes so much courage...but I somehow eeked them out. K was so supportive of me that my jaw almost dropped....and yes there were a lot of tears lol. Next step....now I have to tell best friend number 2....part of me is worried, but the rational part tells me he will probably be accepting. This is such a process....some days I feel good about things but then others I feel like my former self has passed away and that I really don't have much of an identity anymore. I"m really trying not to be a downer though :)
Thanks for listening to a piece of my somewhat ordinary yet confusing life!